It is that time again! Time for me to hurry up and write my Five Minute Friday post being that it is Saturday and all. You get your prompt every week at Kate Motaung’s blog Heading Home. It is about five minutes of freewriting with no worries about editing or what other’s may think. Take the prompt and see where your heart goes. Join us!
Today’s prompt is Abandon!
So I really had to stop for a bit with this one. My mind sort of whirlwinds around the word abandon.
My first thought with the word abandon was of the above picture of my husband Scott. This was taken in Pennsylvania very close to his hometown. I like the way he is just embracing what is in front of him. It is beautiful and scary all at the same time. The beauty is something you can enjoy from afar. But when you get closer to the scary part, the beauty is absolutely breathtaking! I think it is partly because of that little slice of danger there. Then again, I’m guessing with his arms out like that, he didn’t feel the danger like I would.
Get me that close to a big ole drop off and I can appreciate the beauty, but I can also very clearly appreciate and feel the danger.
When I get close to drop offs like this and remotely get close to danger and I freeze. I freeze completely into inaction. It is completely involuntary too. My body will not allow me to move forward nor go back. It is one of the worst feelings I have ever experienced, and it takes absolute force on my part to make something happened. I felt this way when I was vacationing in Mammoth and was hiking on the mountain. We were hiking where people normally ski and I was walking closer and closer to the edge. I was fine as long as I had forward momentum, but then I stopped and turned around to look at where I had come from. I turned back to the edge, and that was it! I couldn’t move a muscle. My body was like “Girl, you can just forget moving at this point. I am on strike until you get some sense!”
Taking a big step to your future can be like that too. It may not be drop off a canyon dangerous, but it can be drop off a canyon big! You see on the other side the possibilities and the beauty that you simply cannot touch, but you also see the danger zone of the possibilities of falling and failure.
On the other hand going back is also impossible too. You’ve seen what you could see, experienced what you could experience, and you have changed! Sometimes you just go too far to go back.
I feel that way now.
In order to grow you gotta go. At least that is where my heart is. Make a move. You know?
Now I am not saying physically leave, but that could be the case. You have to move past comfortable into the dangerous (loose form of the word here unless of course you are at a physical cliff) a bit here and there or at the very least the scary in order to embrace the next.
Now I could go on a quite a bit here, but my five is up. I do want to leave you with this. No matter what move, prep is key. Seeking the Lord is where I stand right now. I find comfort in what is pretty much my life verse.
“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”
No matter what, you are not abandoned.