The new year is here and on the tail of an awesome New Year’s Eve party held at Seekerville, I am finally ready to seize my one word! Not a big deal to some, but a totally big deal for me. My one word is RECLAIM.
I want to take a moment and thank Myra Johnson who is a wonderful writer and member of Seekerville. Last night at the Seekerville New Year’s Eve party, Myra shared her word…RECLAIM. It was like God tapped me on the shoulder. I had chills. It all fit. I had been praying about a word but nothing at all seemed to be coming my way. I hadn’t had a word in two years. I had been struggling for so long with situations I couldn’t control, doubt and sadness over feeling like I had dropped the ball. Myra’s comment on her word broke through to my heart and struck a chord. God used her right then and there and of that I have no doubt. Thanks also to my husband Scott Blackwell for his awesome picture.
Here is the tiniest of backgrounds…
In October of 2013 I claimed God’s call for me to write. I have always loved writing and reading and in fact wrote as a small child by mainly drawing pictures and then explaining the stories. Life always seemed to get in the way whether by my own self doubt or circumstances that I allowed to derail me. I simply had no faith in myself. But near the end of 2013 I claimed God’s call and one of the vows I made was to go to She Speaks in 2014. I shared that claim with anyone who asked and many who did not. If it was God’s will I would get there (to She Speaks) in 2014 by His total provision and if not 2014 then I would make it in 2015 (obviously under God’s provision still but I figured a lot of budgeting would be on my end).
God provided in a major way and I was able to go to She Speaks 2014 and it was amazing! I met incredible people and left very blessed. It was also bloody intimidating and I kind of let my insecurities take a hold on me once I got home. Work life changed dramatically. So many things happened in a furious succession. This post would be a mile long if I went into them. In the long run, I believe God had a plan for all of that. I think he was giving me the opportunity and time I needed to pursue my calling (kind of a hindsight observation), but I was so knocked back and down that getting up was a significant challenge.
Eventually though you just simply have to get up. God puts a call on your life and really at some point you need to move because you are too uncomfortable not to. So I am heading back to the road He has set before me and reclaiming His promises, His purposes, and His call on my life. I am pushing back against generational curses and internal dialogue, because I have no doubt that God is in control. I am reclaiming who God says I am! And it feels really good. Of course what doesn’t feel pretty good on day one?
Accountability phase– There are things I know I need to do to keep on track. This is kind of also where I can sink. I feel better sometimes not saying what I will do because then no one can say “I thought you were going to do this…”
–Draw closer to God and seek Him first. I picked up a One Year NLT Bible and have asked my family to read it with me. I think the most important thing I can do is know my God better. So I plan on investing time in reading His word, prayer and study. I have many many books that will help me with study. Not sure what to choose yet.
–Invest time in my call. I do believe writing is my call. I am investing by reading at least one book on craft every two months. I’d like to say one a month but I am not going to over extend myself and I want to learn as well as read so no pressure. I will also be sure to read at least two fiction books a month. Being well read it vital to my writing.
–Claiming my call. Just did that. Yippee!
I am looking forward to see what happens, and I am looking forward to holding myself accountable. I don’t really have any readers yet so this is on me, but that is okay because I happen to have a really big God and I know he is my NUMBER ONE FAN. He’s your’s too…just sayin’.
God bless you this 2017. You are loved!